Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Worries

I worry every time Presley cries...I worry that she will end up as colicky, fussy, high needs, etc. as her big sister was. I worry that I won't be able to handle another baby like that on top of a high needs toddler. I worry that I've used up my reservoir of patience and that I don't have nearly enough for this family. I worry that this will all turn me into an ugly, awful person.

11 comments:

Poppy Lee said...

I have no idea where you would get such worry from!! I mean - I don't worry. Why won't that furnace kick in?

Catherine Dabels said...

This sounds like the talk of a post partum, sleep deprived, hormonal new mother. We wouldn't expect anything less at this point. Hang in there. You'll do great and so will the girlies...... you'll see.

Barb Tompkins said...

Frankly, you are so brave to have two babies so close together-and have such a high expectation of yourself.There maybe the occassional day that does not go as hoped for-call if you need support

Llisa said...

The fact that you have enough of a mind and enough love in your heart to worry about these things makes you a perfectly normal, beautiful and wonderful mother. Hang in there Tash, just take it one day at a time.

-Twist- said...

aw, Llisa, that was beautifully said & I'm going to concur (because I don't think it can be said better than that!)

Listen to Llisa Tash! Wise woman right there!

Jan said...

I agree. Llisa said it perfectly.

You will make it through the tough days and the good days will make you forget the rough ones.

I'm here if you need anything.

Love you!

The life of Chelsey said...

You're super Mom....seriously. You make felt food for your kid....who does that?!?!?! hats, clothes, go to santa, get pictures days within Presley being born, look amazing I'm exhausted from my boring life to go on right now to even compare so yeah...you are super mom be proud. XO

The life of Chelsey said...

P.S. I envy my big sister.

Danifred said...

I totally understand this. Tot was such a difficult child and I remember thinking the same things when Bean was born. Hang in there. Hugs to you!

Mrs. Z said...

I didn't see this until today...but oh, I remember those worries (ahem, still, let's be honest) and am sending lots of hugs...you are an awesome mommy!

For the Love of Naps - Sarah said...

I have anxiety about our upcoming months ahead too. And Llisa said it best. Just cut down the other expectations for the day...don't worry about homecooked meals, cleaning, or folding laundry. Just love up those little ones, rest when they are resting, and shower (or something for yourself).

And take advantage of those family and friends that offer to come and hold baby or play with S.

You'll be great - but totally normal and healthy to worry about that stuff.